Day Sixteen: Taking Control

My skin is flaring up all over the place and I’m uncomfortable; having to wear layers of clothes to cover my body and layers of makeup to cover my face.

But I feel good today.

I feel ready to take control of my disease, and try a biological treatment.

I’m trying not to get my too ahead of myself, but I do have a lot of hope that I’ll be able to get my skin to a manageable place within the next few months.

I just kinda realized that while I’m trying all these different things in my lifestyle to help keep my psoriasis at bay, it takes time, and to be honest, all my effort over the past year hasn’t really done anything to slow it down. I’m starting to wonder if maybe my assumptions about my triggers and possible irritants were a little off, and I’m not actually going to get good results on my own.

Maybe it’s time to pull out the big guns.

The thing is, I’m missing out.

And I don’t want to miss out on feeling comfortable, being able to do things I want to do, and just being a 25 year-old healthy woman.

I just want to be the best I can be, and I feel like I’m being held back a bit due to something that I could potentially be doing a better job of controlling.

I have to believe that I can be better than this – and maybe there will be a cure in 20 years, easy as that, but it doesn’t change the fact that here and now, there’s something holding me back from living the best life I can live, and I need to cut that out.

If my psoriasis was just a bit more manageable, less volatile, I’d be over the moon.

I just want to feel a little bit in control. And I’m working towards making that happen, now.